Friday, August 11, 2006
What's next?
Things have gone fairly well for me thus far for the hand of the Lord has been with me. His presence again I feel and His strength is upon me, through times of my troubles He has lifted me, maintained my strength, birthed miracles in my life and set in motion a series of great things and having blessed me with a throng of wondrous people in whom I find great joy in.
Psalm 48:1 GREAT is the Lord, and greatly to be praised
I thank the Lord for having opened my eyes, my heart and my ears, praising Him for having wisdom bestowed upon my heart and having blossomed in me, the tree of Faith which was first sowed as a seed.
I thank the Lord for having been with me through my troubled times and may He reign in me, in all His power and glory forever. Amen.
Truly I have been restored and felt refreshed in His presence, having guarded my mind from depressive thoughts, restoring to me some part of my cheer, allowing me to have great joy in Praising Him and Worshipping Him. There has been no other time when such a line rang truer in my life:
You gave it all, You paid the Price and now I want to give You my life! As a sacrifice of Praise!
And also, haha, I would take this chance to say that besides the great worship leader that dwells in each of us, I think that Don Moen is by far the best =)
I confess still that when left alone, inside I am muddled. I don't really know what to feel. Am I happy? Or am I still sad? Excited? Or sianned? I have no idea. Perhaps my cheer has not been great enough to overcome the after effects of depression? Hee. No larx juz crapping. But I really don't know what is happening.
Why instead of being happy always my cheer comes and goes with frequency? I am lost in this matter and cannot figure out what is bothering me (or if there is a problem in the first place)
You know the mind is a complex thing? I actually learnt that on a subconscious level, we may tend to miss being depressed and pathetic that happiness seems like such a weird thing to have. Only when we are depressed do we feel like ourselves again lols. This concept can apply to why people are always late or why their rooms are always messy (like mine) =P....
I wonder if I feel that way? I dunno haha. Hope not.
I will continue to seek my solution and restore to myself my cheer. Praise be to the Lord God and may his mercy and grace dwell in all of us until the ending of the world. Amen.
By the way!!! I realised that the blog is being closely watched haha. I can play games too you know?? Woohoohoo. Hahahaha.
I may not look it but I am far more cunning and sly than you know ah...whoever is out there...this is for you hahahahahahaha. Cheerios.
Looks can be deceiving. Cheerz! =) hehehe.
Posted by The Inflamed at 10:38 PM
