Tuesday, June 13, 2006
13th June 2006
Aha. Very long never blog liao it seems. I think this time I'll rid of the singlish rubbish.
Alas! My computer broke down as all knew (if all had read the previous entries) and thus a new computer has surfaced to take its place. For all its functions, I would say the price is reasonable but to the eyes of one who is not wealthy, I'm afraid that it is still perceived as rather steep. But enough of this! Troubles come like a great storm since the last computer broke down, to the extent of threatening the book that I have painstaking written from scratch. It took me several years to reach this point, moving from first draft onwards. This is the third draft and my most beloved. It is my dream and vision to have it completed and finally publish.
You know, its a strange thing. But before the computer "perished", I had a gut feeling that I ought to store my work carefully. At that time I was always thinking, "What if the computer broke down one day? Your work will be lost!" But always I replied, "Will such misfortune come so soon?" And indeed such misfortune has come. Perhaps the Lord spoke to me and warned me. Such is the folly of closing eyes and ears to the counsel of the Lord. Still praise God, not all is lost. I have a copy with Alvin....though its a rather old version. I have made many additons since I sent him. I may have to retype again if the file recovery fails.
Today I have read a great book, a book of Faith and entitled Faith also. Fantasic. Indeed it is a book of great wisdom and great counsel of which I will and I must heed. Yet it is no mere task to simply conjure a solid foundation of faith and there are many shrouds lying here and there in my mind...the work of the devil runs free upon this Earth. I must trust in the Light of God to guide my way. Hahahaha....I can only laugh. Why? Nay nay, I do not laugh at the light of the Lord.
I laugh because such is the folly of so many christians these days. In their heart, doubt and unbelief grows like a huge tree and yet from their mouth they give the Lord the utmost praise. In prayer also they will praise Him ever so much and asks that He fulfill their desires and needs. But they have no faith to speak of and what faith they claim to have...they are most probably deluding themselves. And I suppose that I cannot claim to have great Faith either. There is great spiritual warfare all the time and battles rage in my heart. Faith and doubt are ever at war. How shall faith prevail?
It is a long road ahead. The journey to build the tower of faith begins now and I will strive to see it completed. Behold and receive even before you have received it, for the Lord will have granted to you ahead of time. I shall work then, towards faith. And I look forward to the day when I will be able to walk without fear, brimming with confidence and knowing that no evil may befall me when I am filled with faith and of the Word of God.
It is a long road ahead indeed. But it is one that must be taken. Otherwise one has never been truly saved. Haha...even now doubt is kicking in...oh there is so much doubt in the air. It shall take great willpower to overcome and a powerful mind or great risilience and persistence.
Today I must ARISE AND WALK. THE JOURNEY OF FAITH BEGINS. The Lord be with me. Amen.
Posted by The Inflamed at 12:26 AM
Wednesday, June 07, 2006
7th June 2006
Woot!! Song ah! I have regained the ability to msn!! At first ah like very not used to it, since one week never touch msn le ma :P den slowly bit by bit my fingers regained the old and ancient strength that was in them and the spirit of msn was upon me and thus I was filled with a joy long forgotten.
Nay nay, indeed I must say that my com will not and will never be renewed by tools and sorts and thus I am living now on a "loaned" laptop. Though old com cannot be fixed, fortune has been kind to me and new com coming soon ahaha. I must say that I have been strangely fortunate. I was actually prepared to go without a com for some time.
So far TP got 2 tests liao, both studied quite hard la and quite manageable also, thank god. Now left the last paper, Intro to HTM and hopefully SS is not the host for the paper. Later must study again. Sianed. Cannot let SS take me down another peg. My hand will slap hard before that happens. Motivation!! By the evil of SS!!
But still yay. Hols is upon us it is time for great merry and the meeting of old friends. Tidings will be born and matched and knowledge will be gained and lost. Lol. Such is the implication of the hols! Farewell. There is much I must tend to.
Posted by The Inflamed at 8:01 PM
