Monday, October 22, 2007
My Lord God
I stand in awe...in wonder of You and Your Majesty...
Ancient and Glorious, Light of the world, and You live in me...
Lord of my life, I love You...
Lord of my days, I trust in You...
Living beneath the shelter of Your wings...
My heart's safe, yes my soul, body and spirit...
Praise be the Lord's for He has helped me in my time of trouble
Made promises that lasts longer than the crust of the Earth
His breath washes clean and clear over us...
And in our greatest moments of loneliness...
When no one else is there to be with us...
When it seems that all our friends have abandoned us...
And the world around me seems to have crumbled into pieces...
When all seems lost and hope not found...
When my enemies encamp all around...
The Lord is there, ever watchful, always present...
His love like a blanket, His voice like sweet music
His eyes like bright blue flaring stones
His touch, melting the hardest hearts of coldest stone
And there He watches over me, wreathed in the glory of His light
And though the darkness seems to shroud me
He was greater than the sun to me
Thank You, Father. Be the strength in my heart. Be by my side always...=)
Posted by The Inflamed at 10:03 AM
Saturday, October 20, 2007
But I will trust in God
A little "poem" that I wrote during my quiet time entitled:
But I will trust in GodLord, tonight was the worst
I even prayed the day before
That You would give me strength
To endure what I believe I cannot
When my emotions struck me
They cast a net of anguish upon my heart
Anger and bitterness took me
And I made silent promises, filled with folly and sin
But while the devil tormented me,
I remembered You, Lord
In my pain and weaknesses
I called for Your strength, in the silence of my heart
I didn't feel all lovey dovey
Nor did I feel very spiritual
Your help was not instant
Yet further I believed and endured
Lord, You are good, Your promises true
For I felt strength rise in my heart
My anger brushed away by peace
And my heart sighed rejoicing
You, Lord break my chains of hatred
Taught me how to love when I could not
You drew me out of the raging fire
Set in me in a rocking chair of light
Yes, You, Lord is He whom I dearly love
For in my stress You comfort me greatly
Saying, "Rest in My love"
And "Cast all of your cares upon Me".
Lord, You are He who opens doors
And who can close them?
In every trial I have passed,
I saw Your goodness and gave thanks
I would brave the fires at Your word
And become a strong son for Your sake
Then to live a happy, heck-care life
And become a weak morsel of disgrace
O Lord, hear me as I pray
Help O God with Your wisdom
Guide me in all my ways
Holy Spirit, light my paths
Though the waters may fall heavy
And the hand of fear is great
Yet King David loved to say,
"But I will trust in God".
You will not fail me
Nor will You forsake me
You have given me strength
To last the rest of my days
Though I worry of the coming months
May Your mercy fall upon me
Bring to remembrance Your love for me
Teach me to enter the gates of Your rest
May I, Lord, live out my days smiling
Praising and thanking You always
Though I fear the coming months
But I will trust in God =)
-Clarence to his God
Posted by The Inflamed at 2:40 AM
Thursday, October 04, 2007
Its a thursday!
Hi good afternoon.
Today happens to be my off day! =)
I'm happy but not so happy...I'm tired. There hasn't been a day where I managed to remain in the grounds of Simei for the entire day...for a long time now. I just can't remember when I last remained home all day.
Makeup cell group after this. Not that I hate cell group. But a large part of me wants to stay home, be with my family and watch television, lie in bed and daydream about the wonderful things in life...or to me, they are wonderful. I want to find a day when I can cook and bake all the things that I've been thinking of cooking and baking. Time is short man, and though the money's good...I will have no life if I do this for a full time job.
Thank God for a 2 month vacation. Perfect. Not too short that I still want to work more and not too long that I become too tired of working.
3 more weeks until the end of October. Looking forward to that actually. I'm tired already hahaha. I've been waiting the whole day for bleach 143 subbed to come out on youtube.
One day in the life of Raffles Hotel. Work is great, not too slack, not too busy, people are nice, I'm not stressed...just that the hours are long. *yawn*
Its a weird feeling at RH...I feel nice and comfortable working there, it somehow feels like home...feels like I belong there. I'm not afraid of the people, not afraid to do my job, I don't have to wait for instructions...I actually feel like I'm part of the staff and not just a regular helpout. This is something I have never experienced in anywhere that I have worked for.
Working life is a new experience...and I like it. Seriously I would not go back to studying science and maths all over again. When I see my sis mugging for her sec 3 promotion exam, I thought, "Whew! Glad thats over." I'm tired, but I like where I am.
The only thing I'm willing to study now is food. Business and management? Oh alright...just don't make the concept too cheem and complex. Communication skills are after all more interesting than beta particles.
Looking forward to my wine class next semester. I'm really curious. How? Why? Do people appreciate wine? There are some sweet wines I personally enjoy, but...lets face it. Sweet stuff is for the kids and the kind old grannies with the toothie smiles. It doesn't take much to appreciate sweet stuff...its like a soft drink right? Just with a bit of a spicy tinge and a kick.
I want to see what the wine world is talking about. The serious stuff. The bitter and the spicy and the strong. May my tongue grow to greater maturity. =)
Sometimes there are some tastes we simply just have to acquire. Otherwise we'll be in the same box of food forever, never knowing why and how...people like certain food and drink that in our mind we term "disgusting".
Its great to try new things ;) especially in the kitchen.
Yesterday I had my first experience working with live lobsters. Big and grey and moving. With my hands. Now it was a shocker cause I had no idea they were allowed to move I mean...all the meat and poultry and fish I've been handling up til now is dead right? And getting a part-timer to handle something which looks so complex seems wrong.
They were like giant cockroaches man. Only prettier. And their claws were tied.
I was afraid of them but I was afraid of the French chef more. Haha...it was the first time I ever worked with him but this guy is a guy who KNOWS food and KNOWS how to handle them and he commands respect man. No other chef I worked with ever demanded me to greet them. But this guy did. Like I was in school again. Felt great by the way.
I just dove my gloved hands into the bag and pulled them out. Oooh. Fortunately the method of killing was simply water-boil and I was guided. I felt a lot safer and more relaxed when the chef was on hand to teach me how to handle them. When I was alone with the bag, man, my first time and he left me alone!
Sometimes when we eat the beef and the chicken and we are so happy that it tastes so good, we just forget the people who slaughtered them for us eh. A bag of chicken wings required the sacrifice of at least 10 chickens. Ouch. For the chickens. And also for the guy who kills them. Can't be easy having a job as an animal slayer.
But new experiences are fun and good. Hahaha.
So next time you eat seafood...especially lobsters, you must remember who were those responsible for making you happy and thank them! Haha..joking. But I think its cool to work in a butchery.
Okok...I have to rest before the mcg begins. *sighs*
Good day to all!
Posted by The Inflamed at 4:32 PM
