Tuesday, June 13, 2006

13th June 2006

Aha. Very long never blog liao it seems. I think this time I'll rid of the singlish rubbish.

Alas! My computer broke down as all knew (if all had read the previous entries) and thus a new computer has surfaced to take its place. For all its functions, I would say the price is reasonable but to the eyes of one who is not wealthy, I'm afraid that it is still perceived as rather steep. But enough of this! Troubles come like a great storm since the last computer broke down, to the extent of threatening the book that I have painstaking written from scratch. It took me several years to reach this point, moving from first draft onwards. This is the third draft and my most beloved. It is my dream and vision to have it completed and finally publish.

You know, its a strange thing. But before the computer "perished", I had a gut feeling that I ought to store my work carefully. At that time I was always thinking, "What if the computer broke down one day? Your work will be lost!" But always I replied, "Will such misfortune come so soon?" And indeed such misfortune has come. Perhaps the Lord spoke to me and warned me. Such is the folly of closing eyes and ears to the counsel of the Lord. Still praise God, not all is lost. I have a copy with Alvin....though its a rather old version. I have made many additons since I sent him. I may have to retype again if the file recovery fails.

Today I have read a great book, a book of Faith and entitled Faith also. Fantasic. Indeed it is a book of great wisdom and great counsel of which I will and I must heed. Yet it is no mere task to simply conjure a solid foundation of faith and there are many shrouds lying here and there in my mind...the work of the devil runs free upon this Earth. I must trust in the Light of God to guide my way. Hahahaha....I can only laugh. Why? Nay nay, I do not laugh at the light of the Lord.

I laugh because such is the folly of so many christians these days. In their heart, doubt and unbelief grows like a huge tree and yet from their mouth they give the Lord the utmost praise. In prayer also they will praise Him ever so much and asks that He fulfill their desires and needs. But they have no faith to speak of and what faith they claim to have...they are most probably deluding themselves. And I suppose that I cannot claim to have great Faith either. There is great spiritual warfare all the time and battles rage in my heart. Faith and doubt are ever at war. How shall faith prevail?

It is a long road ahead. The journey to build the tower of faith begins now and I will strive to see it completed. Behold and receive even before you have received it, for the Lord will have granted to you ahead of time. I shall work then, towards faith. And I look forward to the day when I will be able to walk without fear, brimming with confidence and knowing that no evil may befall me when I am filled with faith and of the Word of God.

It is a long road ahead indeed. But it is one that must be taken. Otherwise one has never been truly saved. Haha...even now doubt is kicking in...oh there is so much doubt in the air. It shall take great willpower to overcome and a powerful mind or great risilience and persistence.

Today I must ARISE AND WALK. THE JOURNEY OF FAITH BEGINS. The Lord be with me. Amen.

Posted by The Inflamed at 12:26 AM