Thursday, July 20, 2006
A change in my blogging style? Perhaps.
Hmm. Wow. I suppose that it has been a terrible mistake not having read the entries of the best bloggers around the world for indeed, their entries and absolutely fantastic and are sheer mouth-openers. Simply stunning.
I have recently come across a blog of my dear friend Stanley who came to introduce me a blog of one of his current classmates and I was thinking, oh my goodness!! How can anyone blog like this? Wow it really made me feel like a loser no joke. But to each his own I would say and all people have their own different styles of blogging. Perhaps I should adopt a new approach? I am considering this indeed.
What have I been trying to accomplish through my blogging? To establish a solid online diary of course. But will this hold any meaning for me in the future? Perhaps not?
Thus far, most of my blog entries have been written to narrate in a humourous fashion, the day's events and more besides. Perhaps something that I have learnt? Indeed this day I have learnt the true meaning of BLOGGING. Sighs. Have I wasted my time? Maybe, maybe not.
There must come a time when all foolish things must end and this I say on a more serious note because I am in no mood to joke right now. Things have come to my attention that require me to devote all the mental power that I have to fight this depression that is at hand. Why it is here? It is something I will tell no one, and truly when I mean no one I say no one. This is something that I have to battle out myself.
After the prayer conference, I actually felt good and now I feel utterly miserable. I call out to the Lord in many tears and in desperation. My heart yearns for his touch, so very very much right now. I desire to bask in his loving comfort, his wonderful peace and presence.
A rage is boiling within me, born of frustration and deep anger. My mind wonders why? This is a battle of wills, of the peace in my heart and the frustration and depression that seeks to overcome it. Were I any weaker I would break down and weep, truly I weep I say and may my tears fill the four Oceans and the thousand seas.
Help me my Heavenly Father!! Speak to me and tell me of what I must do now that none are here for me save you. I shall trust wholly in your mightiness, My Lord God of the World, Strength of Mind and Heart.
May your Peace be with me this day, O Heavenly Father!! I shall come and seek your love and your presence. Receive my tears O Lord as I weep in prayer.
Farewell all. I depart to seek the Lord. May I walk in his Power and Glory forever. Amen.
Posted by The Inflamed at 11:21 PM
